I think I have some crazy dreams and I'm pretty sure they are all relevant to what's going on in my life at the time, so I've decided to jot them down. When I looked up the meaning of this dream, it made me do some soul searching. I'm still trying to understand all of the dynamics involved in this craziness.
My dream starts off with me sitting at my desk chatting with some coworkers just before quitting time. I can't remember whether or not there was talk about people being fired or not. I wasn't at my regular desk or doing my regular work, but I was happy. When it was time to go I got on the elevator and ran into my former best friend. We talked and she shared pictures of her children while I introduced her to my coworkers. We got off on the bottom floor and her husband was waiting for her. He wanted to hug me because he hadn't seen me in so long, but I hesitated. He was always kind, but I didn't care for him in real life. Anyway, they make it to their car while I comb that whole level looking for mine. No car. So I head up a ramp made for cars only, to the next level. Again, no car. I'm pressing the lock and unlock buttons on my keys, nothing. Then I get on an escalator and the parking garage turns into some muddy area filled with young people waiting in line, for what, I don't know. I keep going up and all of a sudden I'm at the top of a water slide. I ask if there is any other way down besides the slide, seeing as how I have my keys and my phone in tow. He says no. I contemplate whether or not I'm really about to go down this slide and decide against it. So now I'm going down the escalator with the water slide operator yelling behind me (I just had an aha moment BTW) saying I can't ever come here again. I'm yelling back I don't care about the stupid water slide, I just want to find my car and go home. It lets me out into a huge pool of water. I'm wading through trying to find my way out and the slide person is still chasing me telling me I can't ever come back. I finally get to another escalator, but not I have to go through another series of mud filled areas. I didn't really pay attention to what was going on in those areas because I was so determined to find my car. Anyway, one of the last areas I get to after a series of crowded lines led me to a room where you inch your way along the sides and the middle has a hole in the floor with what appears to be a bed and tons of blankets. People are covered in the blankets wrestling for what I assume is money. As I inch my way around, trying not to fall, some girl starts following me. She seems to believe I own her or something. She stays close and sometimes holds my ponytail so she won't get lost in the crowd. We make it out of the building and now another girl is trying to be on my team, but I'm not interested. Hell, I don't want the other girl following me around either. The end is the most disturbing part though. In a rodeo style parking lot, a man sexually assaulted his wife. Then I woke up. I never found my car.
I, of course, looked up the meaning of dreaming of a lost car. After reading 3 sites who all said the same thing, I'm losing some type of motivation or seeking a new direction in life. As you may know, my position at work has been eliminated and I've been on the hunt for a new position. However, I've also expressed the possibility that I may be ready to move on from the company. It's a difficult choice to leave a huge company you've worked for, for 12 years with great benefits. It could also be so simple as to the fact that my car has been in the shop and I've been relying on other people to get me around, thus temporarily losing my independence.
The aha moment I had when I was describing the events in my dream came from the fact that I was being told there was only one way I could go to get down, yet I went against the grain and made my own way. It was difficult and full of roadblocks, certainly not conventional, but I made it. I was raised to believe once you got a job, you keep it, especially when you have kids. Now, however, I would rather just go to school to aid in my desire to have a career, not just a job. I don't ever want to be at someone else's mercy again.
My dream starts off with me sitting at my desk chatting with some coworkers just before quitting time. I can't remember whether or not there was talk about people being fired or not. I wasn't at my regular desk or doing my regular work, but I was happy. When it was time to go I got on the elevator and ran into my former best friend. We talked and she shared pictures of her children while I introduced her to my coworkers. We got off on the bottom floor and her husband was waiting for her. He wanted to hug me because he hadn't seen me in so long, but I hesitated. He was always kind, but I didn't care for him in real life. Anyway, they make it to their car while I comb that whole level looking for mine. No car. So I head up a ramp made for cars only, to the next level. Again, no car. I'm pressing the lock and unlock buttons on my keys, nothing. Then I get on an escalator and the parking garage turns into some muddy area filled with young people waiting in line, for what, I don't know. I keep going up and all of a sudden I'm at the top of a water slide. I ask if there is any other way down besides the slide, seeing as how I have my keys and my phone in tow. He says no. I contemplate whether or not I'm really about to go down this slide and decide against it. So now I'm going down the escalator with the water slide operator yelling behind me (I just had an aha moment BTW) saying I can't ever come here again. I'm yelling back I don't care about the stupid water slide, I just want to find my car and go home. It lets me out into a huge pool of water. I'm wading through trying to find my way out and the slide person is still chasing me telling me I can't ever come back. I finally get to another escalator, but not I have to go through another series of mud filled areas. I didn't really pay attention to what was going on in those areas because I was so determined to find my car. Anyway, one of the last areas I get to after a series of crowded lines led me to a room where you inch your way along the sides and the middle has a hole in the floor with what appears to be a bed and tons of blankets. People are covered in the blankets wrestling for what I assume is money. As I inch my way around, trying not to fall, some girl starts following me. She seems to believe I own her or something. She stays close and sometimes holds my ponytail so she won't get lost in the crowd. We make it out of the building and now another girl is trying to be on my team, but I'm not interested. Hell, I don't want the other girl following me around either. The end is the most disturbing part though. In a rodeo style parking lot, a man sexually assaulted his wife. Then I woke up. I never found my car.
I, of course, looked up the meaning of dreaming of a lost car. After reading 3 sites who all said the same thing, I'm losing some type of motivation or seeking a new direction in life. As you may know, my position at work has been eliminated and I've been on the hunt for a new position. However, I've also expressed the possibility that I may be ready to move on from the company. It's a difficult choice to leave a huge company you've worked for, for 12 years with great benefits. It could also be so simple as to the fact that my car has been in the shop and I've been relying on other people to get me around, thus temporarily losing my independence.
The aha moment I had when I was describing the events in my dream came from the fact that I was being told there was only one way I could go to get down, yet I went against the grain and made my own way. It was difficult and full of roadblocks, certainly not conventional, but I made it. I was raised to believe once you got a job, you keep it, especially when you have kids. Now, however, I would rather just go to school to aid in my desire to have a career, not just a job. I don't ever want to be at someone else's mercy again.
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